[ he's quick to turn into caleb's arms and cling back just as tight. it doesn't change anything, there's still a dull empty chasm in his chest where nate is supposed to be, he still feels a little like he can't breathe and a lot like he might never need to again, but he holds tight onto caleb like a lifeline all the same.
nothing's any better, but at least it isn't worse. ]
I can't do this again.
[ he will. he has to, there's no other option, but it all feels so hard right now. he's tired, exhausted, and it's not a comfort that caleb is in the same position, but there's something to be said for not being alone. ]
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nothing's any better, but at least it isn't worse. ]
I can't do this again.
[ he will. he has to, there's no other option, but it all feels so hard right now. he's tired, exhausted, and it's not a comfort that caleb is in the same position, but there's something to be said for not being alone. ]