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Why only yours? If you're okay talking about it.

[It's only been a few months and he's gotten so open about talking magic and his abilities, but he can imagine that no matter how long someone is in this place and it might not be easy to talk about it.

He wants to learn more though about his friends and to be there for them as much as he can.]

Why should you like it? If you don't, that's what matters.

[He pauses for a moment, knowing some might not like what he's going to admit.]

I don't want to stay here forever, but I hate the idea of the things I'll lose without this place. Being free and open about magic.

And the people. Like you.

I was magically bound to Brion as a young child, and the knowledge of how to unlock the Halden potential - his sort of magic - was given to me then. Why me is....

The simple answer is that my family was nobility and openly Deryni, already.

[ The more complicated answer involved speculation as to just why his eyes were a shade often called 'Haldane gray', but that was not something he was--

Not going into right now.

he stops for a moment and eats some of his food and takes a drink from his glass. ]

I should like it because if there is no change things continue to be terrible for Deryni. It needs to change. Changing and challenging it are right.

[ Then a smile. ] I'd miss you too, Caleb.

You and I? In ways we are the same in some of this. I mean generally.

[He had been bound by the Covenant, and he had been the one to have to ensure the others were raised well and they're well taken care of. It had been his job and he can't only now wonder that if he's actually in this place, what had become of them without him.

Maybe it was for the best for them and Caleb to be apart for a while.]

But you're not happy about it? Were they not handling it right?

[It's the one reason he could think of that he might not stand by it.]

It...

[ He pauses, hands curled around his glass and considers, trying to work out feelings and find words. ]

I don't know how he is handling it, in truth. He was from my future. I think I don't like it because it is dangerous to him.

And ultimately I am willing to sacrifice more to protect him and the throne than to sacrifice them to anything else. I don't like that about myself, but that doesn't negate the truth of it.

[Again those ways that they're similar, even if for Alaric it is on a much grander scale. For Caleb it's protecting the lives of three friends. For his friend before him, it is about the throne and a kingdom as well.

Reaching across he curls his hand against his friend's where it rests on his glass.]

A lot of people believe we go back to our own worlds when we leave here. We go back to the same moment we left so you'll be able to help him.

Yes, and I will have years to do so. He was six the last time I saw him.
[ Will he be able to also help Brion? Kelson's father? Apparently not, but that is something he'll have to live with. To channel into helping the son. Until then:] Do you need somewhere to sleep tonight?

Oh. Oh wow, that had to be rough then. I hope you get the chance.

[Though Caleb knows that likely isn't offering much in the way of helping.

He smiles at that though. He could crash at the theatre but that isn't the point that matters to him right now.]

I wouldn't mind spending more time with you.

[ He is as easy as can be about this and returns Caleb's smile with one of his own, a little brighter and more relieved than necessarily makes sense. ]

Then let's finish up here and come home with me for tonight. I like your company, too.

[ Making friends is really not easy for him. He cherishes when he manages - and the people who put up with his too often, too formal and too aloof self. ]

I'm glad to hear that. It would kind of suck to care about you like I do and find out that it's all one sided.

[He smiles though as he says it, a soft and thoughtful thing as he works on finishing.]

And thank you for your patience with me. I really needed to get my head on straight in this place. I'm glad I didn't lose everyone doing that.

[ From most people that sort of statement might be a little alarming, but from Caleb it's just matter of fact and sweet and he finds he is absolutely fine with it. ]

I am unbelievably hard to lose. I never let go of who is mine - ever.

[That only gets a brighter smile from Caleb, giving a nod in acknowledgment of that. He likes how it sounds, as much as he likes having the same sort of feelings for others.

He's spent his entire life with the same family, friends, lovers. Pretty much all in one from how they were raised together. He finds himself doing the same here with those he feels a connection to.]

Good then. Guess we're stuck with one another. I'm glad for that.

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