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ipswichson) wrote2020-08-17 07:36 pm
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I knew you would. Beyond the fact it makes sense to keep him close while we're helping him, but it's just who you are, Nate.
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i've tried to be careful, I've tried to take things slow
but like imagine being in another person's space constantly for more than ten years and then suddenly you have to take things slow
i see him a couple of hours every day and it never feels like enough
and then, he's been here almost two months already. he only has one more to find a contract and the thought of it being with someone else is just
i don't want that
i really, really don't want that
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I can't imagine being in your position and dealing with what you have.
[ He imagines, in a vague way, its like when he knew he wouldn't be contracting with Nate, and then not permanently, because of his past and he also knows how things were when that changed for them. ]
And thank you for talking with me about it as well. It means a lot that you are.
I am going to ask this for your sake, and only for that okay? It's not what I want and writing this isn't easy but would it be easier for you both if I moved to the other house?
You've been through a lot and I will try and understand if there's things you need.
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no are you joking that's not what i want
i mean
is that what you would prefer like do you not want to live with him is this like a him or me thing
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look i
if you would feel better that way then i understand that
but it's not what i want.
i want you with me.
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I don't want that. Ever.
Do you know why I jump into every single chance we have of figuring this place out for ourselves?
So I never have to leave you. So we can still be together instead of knowing every day that any minute they can tear us apart.
I love you and I never want that. I hate knowing that right now I have no control over losing you.
And I don't mind living with Thorn. I'm not afraid of him and so far I like him.
I am just trying to help, Nate.
For both of you.
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i'm living with you because i want to, because my home is with you
i don't want that to change
jesus, i about cried over oli leaving and he's only been here a few months
i love you
i don't want you to go anywhere.
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you are my home, nate. always.
so much about this place is awful but it comes with you so i will stay here as long as i can. to be with you.
im not going anywhere then and i'll never bring it up again.
you're stuck with me.
don't make me demand tattoos that link us nate.
i will.
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i want thorn to be there too because i love him but i don't love him and not you
i want both of you
i wouldn't bring him in our home if you weren't okay with it
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This wasn't thinking you loved him and not me. That was purely did you need space because of how weird things still all for you both.
Because I love you and we both know we love others. Okay?
And I support you. I knew you would contract to Thorn, Nate. From the moment we learned he was here, and even with knowing all of it.
Because it's who you are, and I love who you are.
Please.
I do not want to be anywhere than with you.
Ever.
You're mine and I'm yours.
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i love you too
and listen the other house
i'm thinking of getting rid of it honestly
if i did, i could free up some capital to make our house bigger, give us more rooms, move that dungeon down here
more space for the animals too, like a garden with magic to help it grow
it's just an idea.
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I'm all for making our space bigger and add those things.
I like that idea a lot.
I love our home, Nate, and it is ours as long as we have it.
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but if he does then i'll let go of the flat he's in, same result
i'm more than ready to let go of that place. it's just baggage now
i don't need it.
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Good. Then lets start planning on our home and see if there's any say Thorn has on spaces he wants or needs.
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if he were human i would say he's burying all his feelings, but he's not so it's hard to say
i'd like to have more bedrooms
maybe like two extra ones, to make it easier to play with people we bring home
and a couple extra reception rooms downstairs, one with a bathroom attached so it can be like a play room with adjoining wet room
and a proper garden in a greenhouse with magical sunlight
or maybe nick could help me make plants that don't need sunlight
so we can grow what we need for our potions
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[ He doesn't want to think about having to look again. Not after having what he does now. ]
That makes sense on the rooms. For all our sake, and the animals.
I love the garden idea.
I've really found something I love in potions, in using things to make magic happen.
Maybe like a crafting room? Nothing major, just somewhere for minor workings if the mood hits?
I know we have the portals to the theatre but still...
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something comfortable. some people have home offices, we have a home potions studio
honestly i'd find somewhere bigger instead of extending but i just really love being next to nick and kyle. i don't want to change that.
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I just want more of that.
No one has moved into where Eliot and I used to live, have they? Could we expand into there?
Not the same but yeah. I like where we are. I love portalling to Nick's when I could walk around and knock.
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just make ourselves a bigger house
im glad you like the idea. i know we have everything we need here but. we might as well have what we want too
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I really do. I want us to just make it into the home we want here and there'll be plenty of room for the three of us and the pets.
[ And anyone if they return, like Anna. ]