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that's exactly what i want. to make sure he's still in charge

he says he wants to keep me safe

Good. I love you, Nate. You love deeply. Don't let that blind you, okay? And I'm not accusing. I'm worrying. Remember that.

I believe Thorn does. When he's in control. Given the things you've told me, we have to assume this is two sides of the same person and one of them is the epitome of everything that isn't good. Nice. Something.

Least how I'm trying to look at it. We all have that side, we just usually are integrated. How long since he's been integrated? Not that you know but we have to think about that.

one year since ineroth re-absorbed him

two months since me, anna and my sister but thorn in charge of their body in our world

Do you know how long they were separated before that?

Least we know we can trust who did it.

This is not me not trusting you. You know that right? This is me being downright scared for you.
You talked about how you weren't sure about this place and if it was real or the demon. I won't say I don't worry the same now.

i don't know, but we could ask him

time is weird in his realm remember
it doesn't move like it does on earth

you can come talk to him with me?

I think what I want to know, honestly?
Was Thorn always part of him who escaped or what he created for you.

I'd like that.
I promise to not going on attack mode either.

Before we do that and if you don't know the answer to this that's okay but...
What do you want with them?

he sheared thorn away before i was ever in the picture

caleb, i love him. if any part of thorn is still alive in him there's no way i can walk away.

You know I knew that was the answer, right?
I know how you love and I know how you feel about people.

I've said I'm scared but I'm here to help. Remember that, okay?

You're going to need a binding though. To protect you and Thorn.
Never a guarantee here, but it's going to be the best that can be done.

if we could separate them and bind ineroth i'd jump on it

i just don't know if that's possible
i wish i knew everything that me from a year from now knows

it's why i want to ask caliban for help. he's a demon on the same level as thorn, he'll know best what can be done.

This is going to sound dumb but I mean it.

You're still you, Nate. If you could do it a year from now, you can figure it out now.

Get with Caliban and figure out how to hold him stable as Thorn and then find the way to separate them.

Just... okay I'm going to be a dick but I'm being honest.
Weigh everything you're told against what you know and get, I don't know, second opinions if you have to.
I know you trust Caliban but you've also been tortured for who knows how long by a demon. I don't know how much like calls to like.

i'll ask chris as well
i trust caliban though, he's never done me any harm. in fact he's helped me

i know i'm focused on what i hope for, caleb. i'm not doing this alone I'm asking for help

I know you're not. I'm just trying to take care of you too.
I don't have the skills others have, so just doing it my way.

i just don't

like i can't pretend he's not here and i can't pretend he's not thorn

if it was ineroth tricking me and pretending to be thorn it'd be different, but that's not how it is

I'm not saying you should do either of those things.
I'm just wanting you to be careful. For both your sakes.

i will be, i promise

Please, keep me updated with everything as best you can?
I am here for you, Nate.

i will, of course.
i'm sorry for how wild it's been

Don't be.
Our lives are what they are. And we'll do what we can.

we will

caleb? i love you too

I never doubt that. Not ever.
Whatever happens, I'm here.

i know, love. i know.

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