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so

literally all noah's friends are gone
he asked me to look after the two creatures they had because he can't do it - he's a ghost, he disappears sometimes. more when he's sad, so that's a thing

i said yes, so...we're gonna have a weird little fox and unicorn around
i hope that's ok. i don't want them to be alone
but if it's a problem then i can keep them at the theatre with the others, it's just that they aren't for rehoming so i don't want anyone else to like
want them

also i said noah could stay for a few days if that's ok too
he can stay in my room, it's not like i ever sleep there anyway
and actually he doesn't sleep because of being a ghost, and

i know this is a lot, i just
he's sad and he's my friend
and that's it really. i don't want him to be alone

Of course. They can stay with us for as long as he needs. What's more animals?
This is Nailgun, isn't it? Henry brought him by work. The antlered fox? Henry's friend brought him by from time to time.

And of course for Noah. We have two houses too. So he can crash with us in the Down and then you can crash with him in the Up too. Buys us a week at least, right? Does he have his own place? If he's open to me staying with him, that gets you and me both three days at his place. Now going on two weeks.

Its not a lot, Nate. It's taking care of one another here.

he still has blue's house, i think

and yeah, that's the ones. he might want them back eventually, i just think he's overwhelmed right now

which i get, cause i know how i felt about anna and he's lost his five closest friends in the last few weeks
plus he was dating like at least four of them, the only one i'm not sure about is henry

it's really shit.

However long he needs. Even if they're living with us, they're still his. I totally get that and understand needing the time.

It's fucked up and damn, I feel for him. Whatever we can do. Okay? I know I don't think we've really met but he was Henry's friend then I'm here for him.

Also it just hit me... You said he's a ghost? Seriously? Wow. That's sad and cool at the same time.

yeah
so like
sometimes he just vanishes, or reappears like he's been there all along
and he doesn't sleep
and he's always cold
so don't be freaked out by any of that.

he's nice
things have been a bit awkward with me and him lately, he didn't like what we did with the portals
like he was angry that we tried
so i'm not, like. it's not gonna be a contract situation and we're not gonna like, date. or anything, because i'm not having stephen mark ii

but i do really care about him and i'm hoping that things will get better between us
and for right now i just want to help him.

Never sleeps and now lost so many he is with. Damn, that must be awful.

Okay, so don't bring that up around him. Got it.
I was wondering if you were considering a contract, but I'm glad you're not taking that risk.
I want you to take care of people. I take care of people.
But you can't set yourself up for that pain again. I'm glad you're not doing that to yourself.

We'll do all we can. You know I'm there for you and others.

tbh i don't think he'd ask me, for the same reason
but if he did, i'd say no. i want to help everyone i care about but the bottom line is i don't intend for that to be the last time i get in trouble for trying to push back here, and i think anyone contracted with me needs to be on the same page

or at least like not actively opposed to it. it wouldn't be right to drag him into trouble for a cause he doesn't even believe in

Understandable, and I get it. We can be there for him until he finds someone.

I don't ever want to see you go through that again, Nate. I know it's not my say but I worry about you and I love you.
We'll do what we can, and not just you.

no, listen

it actually is your say. you're not just my submissive you're my boyfriend

i wouldn't want to bring anyone into our lives that you weren't 100% okay with
or that you didn't think was good for me. if you thought that i'd listen to you, c.

Thank you for that.
I think sometimes I just still feel grateful that I can be contracted to you after everything, you know?

But I will remember that and honestly that would be my biggest thing right now.
I never want to see you have to go through what you are again, okay?

believe me i don't either
it's not a mistake i want to make again.
i mean it, i would listen to you
if you thought i was involved with someone who wasn't good for me i would hear you. i feel like i can't always trust my own judgment. not when it comes to this.

I'm here for you, Nate.
Whatever it takes. We're going to take care of one another.

So we'll talk, okay? About those you care about, about if you want to contract with someone.
You know I'm here for you. No matter what.

well the only one that's on the table now is the one you already know about. the doctor

but i know we're on the same page
and he and i are very far from being a couple, anyway

Yeah well, he's been around long enough that I think if there were any problems, you would know it.

You trying to avoid that because of Nick?
I mean, you're talking the one that's his dominant, right?

wait what?

no not that doctor

i mean THE doctor, the one i want to contract with me because his dom left

OH!
My brain did not go to a name lol

He still resisting? How much more time does he have?

not much. bashir left shortly after me and stephen split and it's been three months since that.
he told me he needed time
i just hope he says yes soon

you're okay with him, though?

You might want to check with him. Just in case he's let go of time.

Yeah. He seems okay.
And I don't want someone in jail.

a time lord who loses track of time
honestly i wouldn't be surprised

i'll talk to him.

so uh
you want to talk about kyle?

This place, sometimes time just doesn't even feel right.

Nick talks about him enough for everyone.
Just be careful. For all the obvious reasons.

I don't want the next horrific video to be you.

But also fuck their rules. If that makes sense.

you know they published my list

half of it was arrestable, but they never came for me

don't know why

I know. I looked over it.
I'm so >.< at you.

Oh wait, no I'm not.

You have to wonder though, don't you?
Why some and not others?

Not that I want you punished. I couldn't stand that.
Maybe they know though it wouldn't change anything.

i've never really done well with being told NOT to do something

especially when it's so fucking stupid

i try to keep it under wraps, though. i don't flaunt it

Hey, I know you do.
And you don't owe me any explanations or answers.

I just worry about you.
You're the most important person in my life.
I'll do whatever I can to keep you safe and happy.

kyle wouldn't hurt me
he's helped me.
he's a good person

i promise

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