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they're all fools

but i'm glad they are. i'm glad you're safe.

Or I kept talking about the monsters I was seeing on the network.

Are you still seeing them? I stopped seeing them a couple of days ago and I don't know what to think about it.

no
it stopped after three days

i fell asleep after, but it's like half of me forgot to wake up again

[Caleb thinks about what Nate must be feeling. The loss, the cut off from what he had hoped for the guilt, the pain. No wonder he's not feeling anything.

Caleb wonders if he's shut down, and he isn't sur what to do if he has, but he'll be there for him.]

You will though. With time you will.
And if you don't, we'll go from there. Okay?

[He can't have him worrying that Caleb would leave if he didn't wake up, but he can't help but hope he will. ]

[ He's quiet, for a while. Then: ]

i don't want to be in my head anymore.

[There's no hesitation in his reply. He should but he can't. Not when Nate has coped with all he has in a short time. All he can do is his best to be there for him to get through this.]

Pick me up tomorrow soon as they let us out. We'll take care of it. Okay? Together.

Because I don't want to be either, and I don't want you to be alone.

okay

but i have to go to the city to try and get out of my permanent contract with stephen, and then i have to move out

Okay. Same applies.

Don't do any of it alone. Please?

are you sure

You're my best friend, my boyfriend, and my dominant. I'm here for you through thick and thin.

And I need it too. To focus on you, and to be out of my head.

then okay
yes, come with me tomorrow. we'll stay together

then we'll go home together.
we'll be okay.

Thank you for letting me. I want to be with you.

[He doesn't want to be alone anymore. Not to just wallow in his thoughts. To think about how this place is, what it thinks of him, and what he has to lose. Mostly of all he doesn't want to think about that loss that they all face, that had led them to this.]

We will be. We're going to be okay.
I trust you in that, Nate. I know we will.

[ Right now, the reality of their failure is a fact in Nate's mind. The emotional side of it can't hit him yet. It will.

They know for certain now that they can't do anything about what they love being taken from them. The people they lose will be gone for good. That includes each other.

It means that all they have, all they are, has to be here in this moment. ]

we have each other. if that's all we can count on then that's enough

i'll take care of you. i promise.

it's more than enough nate. whatever i can have is more than enough.

[He's glad they're texting where Nate can't see him cry, can't hear the soft sobs as he clutches at the device desperately.]

i know you will. there's no doubt about that.
just know you're not alone. we won't let you be. you have so many that love you and we're here for you

i know.

you've never let me down, caleb. not even once

i think you're a better boyfriend to me than i am to you quite frankly. i promise you, i won't let you be alone either. i'll get you out of your head. whatever comes next, we'll face it together.

i've never felt that way though nate.
you've done so much for me and taught me so much.

we'll make it though. i love you. i'm here for you.

tomorrow, c. we'll be together tomorrow. it will be okay.

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are you looking forward to them?
one of them's more chaotic than i am if you can believe it

actually I am. they're part of our household, aren't they?

i never had pets growing up. i like our growing menagerie.

neither did i, chiefly because i didn't trust my sister's snakes not to eat them

i'd never be without them now though.

i hope they're ok without us.

there are so many things wrong with that sentence. as if i didn't already think there were so many things wrong with your family.

stephen has them and will watch them. tempest has likely been under my bed the whole time.
you have someone watching the dogs?

[Obviously the new house rule is that any major undertakings can only include two of the three of them from now on.]

fuck. i didn't tell you?

[ He really is out of it. ]

kyle. i asked kyle to.

you probably did. my thoughts aren't all here still.

makes sense though.
screw them not just letting us take out a wall on that place.

[At the very least put in a doorway.]

we could give them a key

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